I wish she didn't have to

Our big girl is gorgeous. She has a lovely nature and people always always comment on her kindness, her gentle heart, her caring nature.

She at times isn't those things at home, but hey, none of us can be like that all of the time can we :)

She adores her little sister. At times, that little sister is really annoying...really really annoying and demanding and loud and sometimes mean.

Chloe has another infection. Quite a bad chest infection really. And Jess also has a cold. Jess gets a cold like other kids get, miserable, cranky and then better. The way Chloe never does. Never...ever...

Anyway...the girls were in the toyroom playing and Chloe was coughing coughing coughing. Jess says " I wish I could take your sickness Chloe and you could be better and I would be sick instead"

And it made me teary. She has such an amazing heart. And she loves her sister so much. And I wish she didn't have to think about the seriousness of Chloe's illness. And that she didn't have to know how damn hard it is to be in hospital long term. And that I wish she had no understanding of illness at all. I wish her biggest thought processes revolved around what book to read next, what Hannah song to sing next and what Christmas presents she will be getting soon.

And it doesn't, and it can't, and yes I know she is amazing..but I wish she didn't have to be.